24 August 2012

Random Hopelessness

I was thinking about elementary school during Mr. Drummer's early morning feeding.  My elementary school.  I was mentally going through all my teachers and remembered how I always confused Mrs. Donagan and Mrs. Donavan.  One was the librarian and one was my Kindergarten teacher.  Still don't know which one was which.  As I went through all the grades I got to 5th grade and couldn't remember the name of my teacher.  Oh, it made me mad.  How could I remember the rest and not her?
Then I started thinking about how our personalities are right there with us from the beginning, and laughed (in my mind, though, Drummer doesn't like feeding interruptions).  I remembered how I used to crochet during recess.  I know.  I was a dork, even back then.  I always feel like I have to be doing something with my hands or I'm not being productive.  I have to conscientiously tell myself to sit back and enjoy a movie without doing anything else.  And I've got about a dozen projects going at once, and usually only get them done if there's a deadline attached, or I'll just keep starting new ones.  It's horrible.
I'm afraid I see that trait in a few of the baby dills.  Sigh.  I just love projects so much, though, I'm not too apologetic.  I've joked that it's my drug of choice, but it really does exhilarate me to rummage through my supplies and start something new.  I'm hopeless, as I think Ryan has discovered, but he like to see me happy.  Even if I'm hopeless. 
Look at those knuckle dimples and big boy paws.  That's one of the first things we noticed about Drummer, who was dragged into the sewing studio to munch on peaches while I attempted to get some sewing done.  Not only does he like peaches, he thrives on attention, so not much was accomplished.  We're all hopeless around here.

19 comments:

  1. Baby knuckle dimples are the best... sigh I love them. My mom is the exact same way when it comes to sitting and enjoying. She's always moving about and our conversations are always happening from room to room as she moves around! She's convinced it's a "March thing". I have an uncle and two nieces, who are also March birthdays, and we see it in them too :D

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  2. Jami--I LOVE room to room conversations! They're so energized and productive! :)

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  3. My favorite during-the-day sewing times are when 1) Baby Nicole is napping and 2) in her high chair eating! So you're not alone. I guess it helps a bit with me that my sewing table is pretty much permanently positioned in my living room in such a way to block the fireplace from curious little Granny Lane inhabitants. We stopped using said fireplace when we got those squirmy little pink things! ;) Technically speaking, I can sit and sew and keep an eye on our girls at the same time... if it weren't for curious little fingers that want to "help" and can't resist shiny things (like needles... especially moving ones!)

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  4. I learned how to crochet out of encyclopedia in middle school. During high school I'd sew during class, on my lap, and then started selling scarves to classmates. Then I worked on crocheting without looking so I could stay up at night working, without anyone knowing. Luckily I'm not that committed anymore. But still my goal is a project a day, usually mending, ok hardly ever mending, but decorated plain shirts for the boy, drawing patterns for the next day. I'm with you, projects are awesome, makes up for the pile of laundry, sort of.

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  5. Oh, I really recongnize that feeling of having to "make" something. I also can't watch TV without something to make...

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  6. I hear ya! When I was 19 I was at a funeral and my nursery school teacher was there. She told me that when I was 4 I told her that "naps were a waste of my time and reading would be far more productive". I don't remember saying that, but it sounds like something I would have said. And I DO remember sitting there staring her down until she gave in and let me read. I think if you are a crafter, it is likely because you just can't stand not doing something. Crafts fill the void and make all time productive.

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  7. I am the same way with my hands - need tobe doing something. Watch a movie empty handed? I would fall asleep! And projects. . . yup

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  8. Anyone else out there feel a shift in your productivity or desire thereof as you've "matured"? I have days that I want absolutely nothing to do with being productive. It usually passes pretty quickly, though, then I'm off to the races again. Maybe it has something to do with the whole mommy business?

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  9. I used to crochet during recess, and lunchtime, too :)
    You're among friends here.

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  10. I had a crochet club at recess! There were four or five of us and we would sit on the steps of the school and pull out our crocheting. I understand your project need completely. If I didn't have a hundred projects going at once, I wouldn't be happy.

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  11. Oh I am exactly the same with new projects and never finishing the old. Piles of unfinished kid pants that they out-grow before I can complete them, etc, etc. Hopeless but happy. Totally right on. :)

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  12. It's ok that not much was done...

    I'm on the other end of the parenting spectrum. My last 2(of 5) will be leaving soon for college and adventures. When they were Drummer's age, I would have been longing for these days of 'almost gone'. Now that I am here, the house is getting uncomfortably silent.
    I can't think of cuter company to be 'hopeless' with! :-) Enjoy.

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  13. I laughed out loud when I read this post. Your crafting habits are mine too! My craft "graveyard" of abandoned projects is hopeless sometimes too, but the good news is that most of the time everything eventually gets finished...even if it is 10 years later.

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  14. loved reading this! :) I used to crochet on the bus... and at Stake Conference... and embroider at church. It was horrible to not have something to do with my hands. And I can totally relate about not finishing things very well without a deadline... and having a million & one projects started/planned.

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  15. Glad I am not the only one who bring a high chair into the craft room to try and get few things done.... which rarely happens!

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  16. I am definitely a Martha here....I struggle to be a Mary.

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  17. I used to say I was a project harlot. I couldn't be true to one at a time... Right now I am hopelessly trying to finish a baby quilt, make roman shades for my front room out of fabric from my study, make new curtains for my study out of different fabric, and I bought a jelly roll of Halloween fabric with Evie (my oldest) because she went to 2 sewing camps this summer and she's got the bug...a harlot I tell you. Give me a scarlet letter...

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  18. Love the rainbow background! Are they your dyed cotton tapes? I get giddy just at the sight!

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