Last night, after we got the kids tucked in, mostly without tears, Ryan and I sat on the couch, enjoying the glow of our finally decked Fraser.
camera settings: iso 4000, f/5.0, shutter 1/25 with a 35mm lens, resting on the music stand ;)
We reminisced about our first Christmas with our tiny little tree we picked from a tree farm, using the little cash we had. It didn't have more than 2 or 3 strands of lights, probably not many more ornaments than that, and even less gifts under it.One year we had an unplanned Christmas away from home, across the country in a corporate apartment without any of our Christmas decor. We bought a rosemary tree and hung miniature, plastic bells and ribbons tied in bows on the tiny, albeit wonderfully fragrant branches.
This year, as the lights on this beauty of a fir give a warm glow (with the weather even warmer outside!) I reflect on how much has changed over these years. There are now 6 baby dills who share our roof! Our seams threaten to pop with all that comes with raising a family of this size.
And how blessed we are. Each of them changing the mix, requiring adjustments of the ingredients of our parenting. My patience, along with those seams has been stretched and stretched and sometimes, probably too often, in need of repair.
It seems so clear, the way we should raise these baby dills when they're asleep with a peaceful, glowing, almost porcelain countenance. But my mind quickly becomes befuddled when little feet hop out of bed and someone turns on the chaos switch to HI, and somehow I have the remote for everything but that.I want to resolve to build my treasures above (Matthew 6:20) instead of here below. I will resolve to build my relationship with each of my children (and of course with my Ryan) with more deliberateness and care, more than the arranging of ornaments and gifts chosen to wrap and give. I want to relish and stoke their desire to please us and their Father above. And it all starts with desire, right?
My parents brought these stars down for our red schemed Christmas when they visited us last. I loved picturing their hands make them (because I know it's a lot of work!) as we placed them on our tree. Do you want one for your tree or to give to someone who has everything (except a Knudsen star, of course ;) ? Keep them busy, go here.